Blah........and maybe something else........Dec 2014 & Jan 2015

It's been a year since I wrote on this blog.  I had orginally started it because I was taking my son to school everyday and there was a bunch of crazy people on the road so I decided to write about it.  Well, that ended when my son decided to move in with his girlfriend (which also ended) and then he screwed up school at the same time. So my son, he's another post.

Today I'll just write what's on my mind. It's been a very long day and I'd usually be asleep by now since it's almost 11pm and I've been up since 5:50 this morning. For some reason, I guess since I didn't nap my body is fighting the sleep. So I sit here watching reruns of Criminal Minds, which is one of my most favorite shows.

Went and got my nails done today. They are bright sparkly red and very festive. My toes are also bright sparkly red. I've been seeing the same girl for over 5 years and I just love how she works on my feet and does my fingernails. She's like family now and if I could, I'd go every week to see her, but I have to settle for every month, or if I'm lucky every 2 weeks. Money is tight, so it's a luxury to even get my nails done. It's also a very tough thing on my body and hopefully we'll move closer to Orlando so I can continue to see  her. I'm getting more ill and it's rough for me to ride in the car to go see anyone for any length of time, so we'll see what happens.

I started rewriting on this last month. Another month has gone by and I guess I need to get this posted. I've since gotten my nails redone, they are pretty purple now. I've always been a pink girl, but in the past few years I've become a purple girl too, because of a disease I have called Fibromyalgia.

It's hell.  I spend most days in pain, all over. My worst pain however is in my lower back. It hurts all the time, and standing up to do anything is even worse. Try cooking dinner when your having such horrible pain that you can't stand for any length of time, yet you have to cut up vegetables, or chicken, or something. Anyway, it's a horrible thing to have, and many think it's all in our mind and we're wacko, yet it's a real problem, it's a real thing, it's a real disease. There are many other things that go along with the pain but I'll write a whole post about that another time.

Wow, so 2 things I need to write about in the future!

I've been trying to get my fingers working better and doing a bit of crocheting in the past few months. I made my grandson a ninja turtle hat and scarf for xmas and my step-daughter some dish cloths. Since then I've made a newborn baby hat and started working on an afghan for someone for next xmas. It's hard on my hands and makes them crampy but I'm getting bored with things on the computer and with some of the other crafty things I was doing. Plus I messed up one thing and it made me mad so I'm just letting that particular craft just sit there until I'm over it, then I'll fix it and finish it.

So there's some pics of what I sent for xmas. It was the first time making the dish cloths. The scrubbies was something I had to figure out, out of desperation. 

My mom was always my "fix" for the dish scrubbies. About a year before she died she sent me a whole bunch of them that she'd bought at a craft fair and I was set! She's been gone for 7 1/2 years now and I miss her every single day. Another story for later, back to dish scrubbies, so I had been using my scrubbies faithfully, wearing them out.  I was down to my last one, it was falling apart. I decided that I'd better figure out how they were made and try to make them. I found several patterns online and made a few. Now I've got some and I won't ever run out of them again. I still miss my mom though. 

I think I'll post this and continue my thoughts another time. Maybe later, maybe sooner! 

Beemer you're not getting in front of me..........

Yesterday I went to the land of the Wizard of Oz, compliments of the IMAX theater and 3D technology. Yep, I spent the $11 for a ticket to see it on the big screen! I figured it was a once in a lifetime thing! I will be 52 next month and have never seen it anywhere but on tv. OMG, the colors, the details I never noticed before! I LOVED IT!! And, I was  good girl. I'm a diabetic, I shouldn't be drinking soda, but I figure the theater is the only place I drink soda, so why not. I had a small cherry coke. Yep a small, and it lasted me the entire movie. I could have chosen water, but ya know, sometimes you need a cherry coke! My need is at the movies!

The theater is located in a town that is about 30 minutes from me. We have a local theater, but it doesn't have IMAX and it's old and in tremendous need of a upgrade. So I drove down there on I-95, and of course drove back the same way.

As I'm driving north, in the middle lane there are warnings that the left lane is ending and to merge. Those warnings come a mile in advance. I'm doing about 75, which is normal in this area, jamming along to the music on the radio. As I'm getting closer to the area where that lane ends I notice in my drivers side mirror there are 3 cars in that left lane. The ending is coming close and none of them appear to be speeding up. Finally the front car speeds up just as the lane is coming to an end and pops in front of me. We are within maybe 50 feet of the lane ending and the other 2 cars are still to the side of me. What the hell are they waiting for?? There isn't a car behind me, they could have gotten over at anytime. But no, they want to play "let's get in front of that car".  Ummmm, nope, not on your life you frickin idiots!! So once the first car speeds up and hops in front of me I step on the gas as hard as I can and both of those cars are made to go behind me, because their lane HAD ENDED! That's how close they thought they were to getting in front of me.  Not gonna happen. Follow the frickin signs and get over before your lane ends you moron!!

So what should I have done, slammed on my brakes so they could get in front of me. No, not gonna happen! I'm doing the right thing, by keeping in my lane, staying at a good pace in MPH and not doing anything to harm myself or anyone else. They are the dangerous drivers, those that don't heed the signs and think they can buck the system or speed limit and put others lives in danger by changing lane by lane. Ok, off my high horse.

Haven't been out driving much..........

So I figured I'd write about something else for as long as I feel like! I mean, hey, it's my blog, right!?!

I try not to be obnoxious, I'm actually a very nice person who's been shit on....a lot.  I've been known to be too nice and now that I'm over 50, I don't feel the need to be too nice anymore. If I don't like you, or something you've done then I just ignore you or cut you out of my life. I have to live my life for me and my husband, and nobody else. Would I love to have more close friends, of course, who wouldn't. But I don't think I've been given what I give.......KWIM?? I give 1000%, very few of my friends have ever done that for me. There's lots of excuses, but I think it's just that when I'm giving, I give, there is nothing in my way to stop me, I'm just that way. But that has never been reciprocated to me. I've had a lot of good friends that will give me 80%, but nobody, except my husband has given me 100%, well and maybe my mom.

My mom. She was the sweetest most loving person ever in the world. She died in 2007 from Renal Cell Carcinoma, kidney cancer. She also had fibromyalgia, and  honestly, not sure what else, I can't remember. She would give you the shirt off her back, which is something that I was lucky enough to witness my entire life. I can remember at the age of 5 or 6, her buying a neighbors kids school clothes because the father was more interested in buy another gun rather than his kids school clothes. But I digress. She was loving and went through so much.

She gave birth 5 years in a row but one was stillborn between my oldest sister and my brother. Her and my father were married in 1956, had my sister in '57, stillborn '58, brother '59, middle sister '60 and me, '61. Yep, 5 in 5 years. It seems like every time one of us was 6 months old she got pregnant again because the last 3 of us are all exactly 15 months apart. She had 4 kids under 5 years old at one time. Boy was she strong! She once told me that when she had the stillborn baby that she gave it to the hospital for research, so that maybe it would help others NOT have a stillborn baby. Not sure if it ever helped, but I know my mom felt better for it. Another way she was giving.  I miss her so much, every.single.day.

I have been home for the past 2 years. I was trained as a nurse. My last job was working as a Director of Nursing in an assisted living facility. It was the job from hell.  I worked my ass off at that job while the director sat on her ass and yacked with the marketing director, all.day.long. She had one main job, to bill the customers every month, and that was always late. I did everything else. I was the main nurse, I did all the hiring, firing, training, supervising staff, inservices, anything having to do with the residents medications, and total overall health. I took all the doctor calls, wrote all the orders, ordered all the medications. I did everything!! Oh yeah, and then there were the days that the cook got sick, or the aides didn't have time to do the dishes, I'd run the dishwasher, I'd dish up meals, I'd serve in the dining room. Yep, I did it all!

Well one day we were having a huge party because we'd built a new wing and I worked all day. I was going out to my car to get my dress to change and fell. As I was quickly walking under the Oak tree there was a number of acorns and I stepped on one, my foot went sideways and I went down. My face hit the pavement, I broke my left elbow, my glasses, skinned up my face, skinned up my hands and knees. It took 3 people to help me get up because I couldn't use my left arm to help me. I didn't realize it at the time, but I also forced both my shoulders backwards and strained my back really bad. Once I got up, although the people around me were worried, they let me go as I finished walking to my car, got my dress out, then managed to get into the building, into the bathroom and actually put my dress on! Crazy! I was then forced by the Corporate people that were there for the fete` to go to the ER. Well I did, I drove myself. Both arms weren't working very well and it was HELL trying to turn the wheels to get to the ER, thank goodness it was only about a block away!

Your tiny Chevy Spark is no match for my V-6 Saturn Vue..........

I'm a Disney fanatic.....yes, yes, I love me some Disney. It's about an hours drive from my house, mainly highway. I can get a good clip going and do about 80 on one road and 75 on another. Now I'm not driving any faster than anyone else. There are many, many people that pass me by.

The other day as were taking the drive to Disney for an overnighter we are doing a good clip of 75 in a 65 zone. Nobody slow is in the fast lane (which is a REAL problem here in FL) so we're going along just fine, chatting away, laughing, enjoying the ride. All of a sudden this asshat in a tiny Chevy Spark jumps out in front of me, where I have to slam on my breaks because he's only doing 60 in a 65. Yeah, I know I was going 75, but I pay attention. First we made fun of his car, because you could see the poor guy in the backseat was sitting sideways. And it was just so funny looking, this tiny car with these 3 people scrunched up inside. Those things may save you on gas, but they won't do a think for your life if you're ever in an accident!

Anyway, he sits in my lane doing 60, and although there are tons of available openings next to him to pull over, he stays in my lane and makes it completely impossible for me to get into a right lane to go around him. I start getting a bit upset and am on his tail because I have 10 cars on my tail. I'm flashing at him to go over everytime there's a chance and he just sits there. Finally a huge stretch of openness comes up on the right hand side and he finally gets over! So I zoom past him, as do the 10 cars behind me! He then decides to try and keep up with me. Ummmm, that's not even gonna happen. First of all, my car is pretty fast and I'm not afraid to use it! So for the next 10 miles or so he continues to try and get in front of me again, he's finally putting his foot on the gas! Now why the heck couldn't he have done that when me and the 10 cars behind me were getting pissed at him for driving like an ass?

I made sure that he couldn't get in front of me again. But we finally came to our exit and enjoyed the rest of our short trip!

No offense.........................................

I write from my heart. I'm not an english major, nor a professor. I put lots of dots...........and lots of exclamation points!!!!!

Not all Floridians are idiots. Not all of them are stupid. I know a lot of very lovely people and friends here in FL, this writing is not about them. My blog is just about the actual stupidity that I seen almost daily with many, many drivers here.

I have lived in Hawaii, they drive crazy as hell there! And it's supposed to be "paradise"! LMAO! I've also lived in Philly, lots of craziness there too, and lots of lead foots. I did learn how to drive a stick there since there was a stop sign or light at every street, it was very easy to learn quickly. I was born and raised in Washington and learned how to drive there. I have driven in Seattle traffic and during a horrendous commute and can't see how people can stand to drive there, I think it's probably 98% close to being the same as Los Angeles and it's horrendous driving issues.

So if you are offended by my posts/blog, sorry, but if you are offended is it because you are the same type of people that I'm talking about? Did you forget what the stick on the left hand side of the steering wheel is? When was the last time you forgot your blinker, or do you do it all the time? When was the last time you were talking on your cell phone and drifting over in your lane into my lane, when was the last time you were texting and drifted almost completely off the road? Think about yourself being offended, then think about the questions I  just posed to you. Does it apply??

The rim is round, just like the tire..........

As I'm driving in the right hand lane on a road that is 65 MPH, and most do between 70 and 75, I look over.  There is a Jeep SUV that is trying to rejoin the ongoing traffic from the side of the road.  It just starts driving, no lights, no blinkers and starts merging from the side of the road into the left lane of traffic, where the people are driving 75 MPH. As I look closer, the woman has a flat and the tire is rolling around the rim! Now obviously she knows she's driving on a flat, she was on the side of the road! She keeps going, about 25 mph into the oncoming lane, and the people are having to slam on their brakes! You can see the tire rolling around the rim and she keeps on driving! I'm screaming from my car, doing 65MPH in the right hand lane......'YOU'RE DRIVING ON THE RIM....YOU HAVE A FLAT!!" 

At that point my exit was coming up and I had to slow down and take my exit, but I kept looking to see if she was getting off at my exit, but I could no longer see her.  All I could think was how bad the tire must have looked and how stupid this woman must have been to think she could get back into 70 MPH traffic and get to the exit and into town on it.  Just can't believe it! CRAZY!!

Fog...pea soup thick....

I used to drive a 2 lane road everyday to take my son to school. Two lanes of 55 MPH, each way, sometimes lowering to 45 MPH.  It can be slow going most days, but I will admit, I do pass when it's legal and I am tired of following grampa or the idiot in his beamer trying to make a deal.  Yes, I am guilty of going faster than the speed limit. Now honestly, 55 is too slow for this particular road and it really should be raised to 70 since it's a country road that is in good shape and there are very few houses or roads off of it.  But that's just my opinion.

As I drive, like I said, I pass people.  But the other day the fog was so thick I wasn't about to pass anyone. You couldn't see 2 car lengths in front of you, so I did the limit, following the other 15 cars in the line with me, where normally I'd have worked my way to the front of the pack so I could do my limit. :D  It was even so thick I had trouble seeing as I drove out of our housing development where I have to make a turn. In my car I have automatic lights, they are always on due to a sensor, but I also have fog lights that I can turn on when the fog is thick.  Where I come from the winter time this is really needed, but here in FL it's not usually that often I need them.  The other day was definitely the exception. 

As I'm driving I'm noticing how many are driving without lights!  WHAT ARE THEY THINKING??  Isn't it the law you have to use lights on low during fog?  You could barely see the cars with lights, let alone the morons without lights.  I don't understand, my first thought when the news said it was foggy was to make sure my lights went on, especially after leaving the house and seeing for myself how thick it was.  Don't others think about that when they leave the house? Where is common sense.  What if someone had tried to pass another car on this long stretch of road, not only can you NOT see the cars coming at you, because of the fog, but also because you didn't have your lights on.  The crashes could have been endless because of the inability to see and the pileups that could have occurred.  Thank goodness we were being watched over so nothing happened, but still it could have, because of the common senseless factor! Crazy!